:: summerr's rant ::

:: Tuesday, October 14, 2003 ::

hey everyone! today's tuesday and i'm totally re-inspired to blog! got an email from the Smallville people and apparently Allison Mack has a personal blog, but it of course resides on the WB site.
anyway, reading her blog made me realise that i should get my butt into gear and start chronicling my life or it'll just pass me by.
so i'll keep blogging. this is a test before i launch into my personal tirade, so ciao for now.
:: jhien 1:04 AM [+] ::
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its a saturday morning, and its like the work week never ended. the calls from the office just don't stop. the crises just don't stop. i don't know if its the job or me or what, but everything's just so messy. my first instinct is to of course blame the job, blame the mess, blame the people above me. sigh. but i don't know anymore if thats the way to go. perhaps its me, maybe i'm taking on more than i can chew. or maybe its just my nature to not be meticulous about things. I'm trying, i really am. And i so want to beat this feeling of helplessness and be the super marketing person i'm supposed to be. But its times like these when i try and and everything STILL goes wrong that i wonder if its worth the stomach ulcers i'm getting.
on top of that there's the personal goals - the go home early and work on the wedding, the house and the fat.
is this whats meant to be a full life? having things to do all the time?
where has all the time gone? i ask myself this every day every day every day. Where has all the time gone man? Where has the time when i used to just stare into space gone?
If i had one ability, it would be to freeze time at will. Piper has the best power.
Freezing time and making money that would be the best. So that my loved ones wouldn't die, and I could have alone time when i needed it and i could buy people i loved anything and everything.
Saturday morning folks. 11.39am. need to get dressed, the fiance is coming over in like 20 mins to pick me up on another day of back to back activities....we've got a designer to see, a showflat to visit, and million others things i'm sure he's planned out. Where has all the time gone? The times we used to just laze in each other's arms?
shucks, who am i kidding, he never slows down. I used to imagine lazing in each other's arms.
and now i think, if i could stay a uni student for the rest of my life i'd do that, but then when i'm in there i'd itch to be living out here and doing something with my life!
so ... i guess the question is....AM I doing something with my life? and whats this elusive something that people always refer to anyway??



:: jhien 8:46 PM [+] ::
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this is my first rant. but i might just change the word 'rant' cos its got this negative vibe to it. i guess my first entry should be something about myself. so that all you other people out there who somehow stumble upon my ramblings will be able to make some sense of it - then again, i dont make much sense anyway, so maybe not! Hah!
so, the thing that prompted this foray into a personal webpage was none other than the manolo-blahnik wearing Sarah Jessica Parker, more so her character on Sex & The City specifically - Carrie Bradshaw. (this is such a wicked, wicked show by the way).
the other source of inspiration was my cousin Janice who recently (well to me it seemed quite recent anyway) started up her own blog, and i found that the freedom with which she writes and the stuff she rambles *definitely* on about was pretty interesting - it was like getting into her head.
also, this is a great great way to keep in touch with friends and update them on whats been going on in my life.
and i guess lastly, i hope i've not bored anyone with this site. coz that would be the worst - to bore people.
lov

:: jhien 10:32 PM [+] ::
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